After a really long time in this environment, she will begin to have periods of depersonalization, where she feels emotionally numb, disconnected from her personality, and may have out-of-body experiences. I'm scared to rest in the love of God as if He may fail me. For a better experience, please enable JavaScript in your browser before proceeding. And I felt so much relief. God is all knowing, He knows the enemy's tricks. For example, if you have intrusive thoughts about losing control and stabbing someone with a knife, you may be asked to touch a knife or hold a knife to your therapists back. It ministered to my soul. Is my repentance too late? Its all lies, more forward I still kept going to my feelings. For the word of Godisliving and powerful, andsharper than anytwo-edged sword, piercing even to the division of soul and spirit, and of joints and marrow, and isa discerner of the thoughts and intents of the heart. Psalm 94:11 tells us that God knows our thoughts are futile. I would feel fine for a while but once the said blasphemous thought passes, I'll go back to feeling guilty and scared again. So what I've been trying to do is to start and finish a masturbation/pornography without having an unwanted intrusive thought or any bad thought, so I can finally stop it. But now in the past years my OCD has been primarily based with my faith. Keep your hands in your pockets, keep your mouth closed, and wait for falsehood to fall to the floor of its own accord. But this doesn't mean that it's okay to insult God and Christ. It probably has something to do with new layers of thoughts and views of self that are introduced at that time. I understand you are tormented with this. Your intrusive thoughts produce similar feelings of danger and powerlessness. However, after I found so much peace for so long and finally found my most loving self I feel like God is constantly condemning me for listening to Wayne Dyer. Well I have been dealing with intrusive thoughts for about 13 years. I too need to talk to others in groups like this cause it is scary!! And that very repentance is the work of the Holy Spirit in great mercy to awaken the children of God to repentance so that we will make it to the day of redemption. Nothing will ever snatch us from our Father's hand. They are alien, foreign, and disgustingly undesired. But when I mess up a sentence, it will go from what I meant to say to some how saying that I want God to leave me and I dont want Him to. Including these thoughts. I know it isnt true. Hi I've been struggling with this for almost a year I've been struggling with really bad intrusive negative unwanted disrespectful thoughts about god Jesus christ and the virgin mary and i feel really really awful because my intrusive thoughts are very offensive and have swear words foul language and I'm really scared that i hurt their feelings and there mad at me i pray forgiveness but the thoughts just won't go away and i really wish it would as well as the voices in my mind and I'm really scared and mad that I have to have this. We and our partners use cookies to Store and/or access information on a device. It may take a while for the unwanted thoughts to vanish but God will honor your true verbal worship. This cycle of trying to remember if we actually did something bad or not is so annoying, right? Oh thank you! I recommend praying very simply to say, Im sorry, I feel bad that I laughed at a bad joke. Getting an onslaught of spiritual doubts that go against the grain of your faith community might be very disturbing to you. Not condemnation, and not a big lecture. They were raw. so I was tired of these intrusive thoughts and the more I tried to avoid them, the more they came. The only way to overcome is through total faith in Christ Jesus. When your thoughts get mixed up because of the OCD, that is not sin. They feel the most real and strong then and often give me anxiety when I settle down. I fell into a terrible anxiety ridden deep depression. God still answers most of the prayers I pray. May you be blessed today and each day. We and our partners use data for Personalised ads and content, ad and content measurement, audience insights and product development. Try it. If you truly are guilty of doing that sin, then you wouldn't care about God at all. Other times, they can be completely worthless, unimportant mental noise. I was having blasphemous thoughts against the Holy Spirit and then I was like arguing with myself in my head and then I thought I truly willfully blasphemed against the Holy Spirit with my thought because of how it felt, sounded and of course the urge that came with it. If you no longer want to be a Muslim and desire to return to following Jesus, I encourage you to do so. Spend more time worshipping God. You whomake your boast in the law, do you dishonor God through breaking the law? Look, now you have heard Hisblasphemy! There are things our entire faith community might be missing,just like the Jews missed out on the Messiah when He came. But what does it mean to blaspheme the Spirit? I had no idea what was wrong with me. So, the point here is not that Esau repented and could not be forgiven, but that he couldnt find the place of repentance. I wish you the best as you move forward and rejoice in the cleansing grace of our Lord Jesus Christ. If you have these kinds of blasphemous thoughts, you should know that it isnt part of a normal religious experience, and it isnt your fault for having this. I just feel lost. I didnt really want to. I dont know if youre struggling with this anymore, but my advice is to just ask God for forgiveness, and ask God to cleanse your thoughts. What most people dont know is that honeybees can only sting once and then they die. He told Eve she would be better off as the parent rather than as the child. Selah, Thank you for this beautiful testimony. Everybody has weird, inappropriate thoughts from time to time. She came back here, had sex with me again, and left to go to Bible college. While I was using I started decoding the verses again and I ended up back in the hospital. but a definite act showing a state of sin, and that state a willful determined opposition to the present power of the Holy Spirit; and this as shown by its fruit, blasphemy. And if a house is divided against itself, that house cannot stand. I'm just afraid that because of me God will not accept my loveone anymore.. i need help please.. thank yooou, I understand exactly what you mean. This shows that in most cases, uncontrollable blasphemous thoughts are not a theological matter or even a spiritual one, but the product of a psychological condition that is not only most unpleasant, but exceedingly unfair. Hi, I don't know what to call this but I'm aware of what I'm thinking I mean I'm conscious and thought it willfully, I know I'm thinking about a bad thing and that thought is wrong, it's like the thought is just there, I don't know if it is a ocd. Trust me on this, and that those thoughts are not your own, as you struggle with them. The best way to respond to that is to gently push yourself, bit by bit, to read your Bible even if you get feelings of anxiety. Let me explain why you dont have to worry about this. This cannot be possible from my point of view i reach this thought everyday that i shouldn't be creeated. I just keep praying about it and this article really hits home. And, how can I know for sure I don't have it? 2. The Bible calls this righteousness by faith, and this is the opposite of righteousness by works. We human beings have always liked to work our way to salvation, as if salvation is something we could buy or earn. Dear friend, dont give up. But I'm afraid the reason I want to do that is because of selfish/intellectual/interested in the benefits reasons. God bless you richly and I will add you to my prayer list. I'm scared that I'm lying to myself and that these thoughts are true instead of false. Now I understand the condition, not my thoughts intrusive thoughts. I am no longer a Eucharist Minister, mainly my decisionbut I was basically told by the clergy that i could not teach the kids because i married a man that had been divorced. It was not ego-syntonic. Thank you for the advise, I feel like maybe I can conqour these thoughts Im in Zimbabwe and into ministry but the thoughts kept creeping into my head to curse the name of God. Well, tonight I had a thought I renounce christ and I think it did because I felt fire in me and now I'm worried the demons are back in me and I'll be 7 times worse off than before. As you draw closer to God with an open, honest, and intimate relationship with God, tell Him about your unbelief as well as EVERYTHING else that concerns you. Theres not a lot of consistent feedback in the Bible about mental blasphemy against the Holy Spirit. Heres another somewhat lengthy example of how blasphemy can be any form of disrespect, of lowering Gods estimate and worth, or failing to show the proper respect. Every scrupulous persons biggest fear is, what if that thought was genuinely from me?. God never promised to remove the things that bother us but He said He will prepare a banqueting table for us while our evil enemies (like intrusive thoughts) glower and lurk in the dark forest nearby. Thank you very much for sharing your experience I know it will be a blessing to others who will read it. It feels like I am constantly walking on a thin rope. Advice? Necessary cookies are absolutely essential for the website to function properly. Thank God it wasn't that big of a deal. It takes time to have complete restoration. Even when I am reading the Bible I will still feel doubts or questions of him. But i had a similar breakdown and this time i feel like my fear has come true. Just recently I was prayed over at church and this last week my mind is clearer than it has been in along time. And I didnt even know anything of their book nor I know much of bible but I only know I have a lot of faith in jesus but they made me doubt my faith and even made me take action. Knowing that these thoughts are obsessive-compulsive is one thing. Again, I reassure you that your words may have offended God but they DIDN'T Break God. Recognize that these negative feelings will not hurt you, even though they are very uncomfortable. And in two of these gospels Matthew and Mark the statement is set within a story, and the author remarks, Jesus said this because. The key lies in remembering that thoughts have no power and God understands the origins of our thoughts better than we do. Scrupulosity tends to give us a sense of hyper-responsibility for all things in our spiritual life. Blasphemous Thoughts and Unforgivable Sin: A Hell Of Fear Justin Aptaker Aug 25, 2019 Where Theology Meets Mental Illness Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder, Scrupulosity, and Christian Universalism " but whoever blasphemes against the Holy Spirit will never be forgiven; they are guilty of an eternal sin ." I've been going to therapy since August 2020 and it has helped a little with the addition of medication. I started clutching at straws wondering what was going to happen to me when i die. He wants you to be free, just as much as he wants healing for broken legs, cancer, and depression. Typically, these are people who have scrupulosity, also known asreligious OCD. And my Heavenly Father knows my heart and my intentions !! For me: The more I commit my self to our Lord Jesus Christ the more the enemy tries to dissuade me. I've been feeling depressed for some years, and backsliding, unfortunately. Starting this Wed Nov 3, 2021, I'm going to have bi-weekly meetings with a pastor so he can help me better understand God's unconditional love for me. (His mothers namewasShelomith the daughter of Dibri, of the tribe of Dan.) Thank you! You're ok Honey. Id like you think a positive future for me with your powerful mind. Then He gave Him a word of encouragement that there were still 7,000 who had not bowed the knee to Baal. I thought I had finally found God and faith.. This well-intentioned fixing takes two main forms. Manage Settings I just had a baby and was a little weak! Unholy Commandments of Sacred Blasphemy 5. They only feel that way. But if I don't eliminate this OCD problem, I may keep worrying, obsessing about it and keep feeling anxious and stressed. My Struggle with Unwanted intrusive thoughts ( since September 2022) has strengthened my relationship with Christ, it has been revealed to me just how real spiritual warfare is. We walk by Faith, not by sight 2 Corinthians 5:7. During the past few weeks I had these blasphemous thoughts at the time( I didn't knew about the name of it at first) it was about God but now my blasphemous thoughts were also directed at other gods like Buddha and such. Can you please help me out with a question? I saw another face in my mirror. They labeled. Thankfully, our intrusive thoughts aren't us. It was granted to himto make war with the saints and to overcome them. Will God turn his back on me? Your eternal life is safe with God despite the annoying blasphemous thoughts, feelings and urges. If you could send me more tips. The blasphemy of the Holy Spirit is committed when a person is so cold-hearted, that they don't see that what they're doing is wrong. They argue (perhaps wrongly) that religious believers are hypocrites while they are not hypocritical in any way. Many religions consider these ideas to be sacrilegious. AGAIN, THANK YOU!DO YOU HAVE ANY ADVICE ON DEMON POSSESION, ? A trick I tried was to tell my brain, "why can't you be wittier than that!" And still don't feel the real world. They are really annoying. Psalms 25:8 KJV. For now we are speaking only of the verses that condemn this behavior in those who are engaging in it purposefully. I was in the same boat a few years ago. If you go to Jesus , He will NEVER reject you! I actually have a question. Her major breakthrough (she is doing significantly better now) was to ignore these thoughts and allow God to do her fighting for her. They were far more privileged than you and I in their ability to witness miracles and hear the words of Jesus. I had never read them before today. Do you know any doctor located in Bronx, NY that is really good with these themes? All of us have some lies in our worldview. You probably felt better in the hospital for 5 months because you felt some sense of security which caused you to be more relax. Its the hardest thing a person can go through feeling forsaken, scared and worried over something we cannot know until we die. I think I'm backslidden, and I think my heart is hardened. Blaspheme Against the Holy Spirit | Did I Commit Unforgivable Sin? I cannot thank you enough! Sometimes a scary doubt or negative thought can actually be positive. This means that He can understand our intentions way better than we can. Just remember you can KNOW you have eternal life if you believe in Jesus, trust in Him and rest knowing that He has everything in His hands no matter what. I know I still believe in God and I want a relationship with Him. I am not going to go astray and keep going. He continued to do this after me encouraging him to stop and then eventually made a sexual joke about God and the Holy Spirit. I was a Christian but living in sin. Is there a cure for this thought-sounds mix? tqb-impression-2045-tqb-user-60f57081ee1b65_56201664, tqb-impression-2045-tqb-user-60f570f671e497_32882585, tqb-impression-2189-tqb-user-60f57080d8efc3_26603292, tqb-impression-2189-tqb-user-60f570a35906b8_59176067, tqb-impression-2341-tqb-user-60f5708568cea4_21812820, tqb-impression-2924-tqb-user-60f570d6a0d8d6_62640332, tqb-impression-2924-tqb-user-60f57106889ba2_61578013, tqb-impression-3075-tqb-user-60f570e23bf777_45533188, tqb-impression-3123-tqb-user-60f570750f80f8_87645952. I know that at many times the thoughts really seem purposeful and are not, but technically I think it was voluntary. I believe in reading a chapter of Psalm in the morning & night, starting with Chapter 1. If its your OCD, again, ask God for help. Why Does God Compare Our Relationship with Him to That of a Bride and Groom? But through all this, God never leaves our side. I ended up in a state of vulnerability and I ended up in changing my beliefs because someone had presented me with some facts. intrusions from the enemy not me. Typically, ERP involves exposing yourself to these thoughts and choosing not to resist, avoid, or fight back. There are much healthier ways of getting them to go away, but harm is not one of them. So remain silent and let the untruths swirl around you. He will never lose no matter what and even the peoples failures in the Bible such as King David, Paul and even Jacob has brought people hope. Let no one deceive you by any means; forthat Day will not comeunless the falling away comes first, andthe man ofsin is revealed,the son of perdition,who opposes andexalts himselfabove all that is called God or that is worshiped, so that he sitsas God in the temple of God, showing himself that he is God. I can not stop the endless guilt. BUT God is bigger so I will continue to speak life . So here is my take on this. I want these thoughts to stop. I think having people in my life who relate to this torture is in of itself helpful. God will never leave you nor forsake you. I am here seeking you, Lord, even with all my issues. I'm afraid I might have blasphemed Him in my thoughts. But there are passages that tell us not to blaspheme. So as long as I know that I dont mean the thoughts, everything should be ok? Write CSS OR LESS and hit save. Here is Jesus in Mark 3:2830: Truly, I say to you, all sins will be forgiven the children of man, and whatever blasphemies they utter, but whoever blasphemes against the Holy Spirit never has forgiveness, but is guilty of an eternal sin for they were saying, He has an unclean spirit. In other words, they were attributing Jesuss deeds to the devil instead of God. How can I know God still loves and cares for me? For I am bno longer under the law but under grace and the grace of the Lord Jesus Christ is always sufficient for me. I started using the "table in the presence of my enemies" exercise on my own, then read it in this article. Not even you. What Is Blasphemy Againt the Holy Spirit? - Learn Religions A quick background on me: I do have subclinical levels of anxiety and traces of OCD behavior (very minor). I put it behind the bureau. I want to love the Lord (Father, Jesus, Holy Spirit) like I used to. But maybe those doubts have some truth to them. but I cant shake the fear that they are wrong, and if I were to blurt something out against the Holy Spirit I would be lost. But salvation is a living, breathing relationship with God, and so the only work that we need to be concerned about is simply to abide in Christ in a childlike, trusting way (see John 15). Convictions, awareness. Same I wish someone wrote a book about this bc reading the comments were all going through THE SAME THING AND FEELINGS! I dont want the Holy Spirit to leave me. Ill tuck it into the back of my mind and put out more info on it if I get any lightbulb moments! Or it can be a form of arrogant disrespect to your Creator, either in the form of cursing, taunting, or vile speaking. I know all you OCD sufferers out there like me know what Im talking about. Stop being hard on yourself. Now, not every ego-syntonic thought is objectively correct. You have hit the nail on the head. I know God is the only one who can do this for me. Jesus typically did not take insults and blasphemous accusations personally (Luke 23:33; 1 Peter 2:23-24). This might be confusing. Though He is close and personal to each one of us, there is still an immense gap of ontological distance. God sent an angel to give him food and rest (translation: SELF CARE!!) The Unforgivable Sin | EWTN I have suffered for a week now with intrusive thoughts from my own to several voices inside which has drawn me nearly to the brink of insanity. I was crying like a two year old. I dont know if God loves me or forgives me. Let me call your attention to something you may have not thought about yet. These unwanted thoughts that just pop in your head and wont leave are called intrusive thoughts. Everybody gets weird, unwanted thoughts from time to time, but the average person is able to let it go, like water off a ducks back. You can pray like this: dear Lord, I think my motives are pretty messed up, but you knew that already. It is so true that God knows all our true hearts for Him. These are the things that Christians do and regret doing and have to repent of doing and ask forgiveness for doing. Fear often drives people to God, and this is totally normal and Biblical. Thank you. Let me remind you that before the idea even entered your mind, Christ was trying to get close to YOU. I was still under the universal salvation spell when I saw a website of a man claiming to have keys to the Scriptures. Instead, you must embrace the swampy, yucky feeling and resolve to push forward to Christ. Is that what youre saying?, Yesbut! A compulsion is any action that is done in order to alleviate the feelings of anxiety that come with the blasphemous thoughts. The bravest thing we can do when we recognize we need help is to reach out. The repetitive nature of intrusive thoughts mean theyll keep coming back again and again. He is the One who bears long with us, constantly wooing our hearts to God even when we are lost and enamored with our sins. I never have had that before, and never was like this. Hope something will work out for you. i do not want to go to hell or be without god.. im scared im really worried about damning myself to hell because of this i feel so lost and empty, im really scared, i just wish i could love god in peace and not have these disturbances, ive talked with my therapist, psychologist, and a spiritual advisor and my parents.. im afraid it just keeps coming back and i dont know what to do, ive had thoughts of suicide or "If i had been gone a year ago i wouldnt be in this position." Two years later to day and I can really testify that the Lord will never leave you nor forsake you !! Imagine how far these guys had gone. Now, you get these bad feelings and get caught trying to figure out if you did something wrong or not. The hope is in releasing your personal sense of control, and this happens by recognizing your relationship to God is not that of a slave but a child.
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